January 10, 2009

• Everything's Gonna Be Alright....

  Funny, no matter what thought rattles around in my head, there's a video to go with it     This isn't the song that was accompanying my thoughts, but its actually better....And it's Al Green, try to beat that!

  Boy, do I have it in my lower back today.  How come?  Hmmm....I slept too long?  Slept the wrong way?  Had plans to start an exercise dvd this morning?  Probably all of the above    Well, it's alright, it gave me the opportunity to sit and go through some papers that needed going through.  So my desktop and my counter top look a lot better and I no longer have to dread looking through it all and finding something important that I had previously overlooked. 

  This being off work thing has me all discombobulated.  I'm a very anal organized person, usually.  Everything has a place and everything in it's place.  You know the type.  I always open all the mail and put the bills in the little stand up thingy to be paid, file things from the insurance company, throw away the junk.  Now?  I throw it in the pile.  Unopened.  Maybe for weeks.  It's a wonder I've avoided utilities being shut off.  

  When I first was layed off I would get up at the same time in the morning anyhow.  Not like I had anything pressing to do, but I did it anyhow.  I got so much accomplished, Nate's bedroom painted, walls washed down, closets cleaned out, etc. etc. etc.  Now I set my alarm for 7 and hit the snooze till 8.  Usually don't hit the shower till 9 and if I'm going into the office that day, I can't get out of the house before 10.  Yikes!  And ya know, the less you do, the less you want to do.  I don't know how anyone can stand to stay home all the time like this, it's making me insane. 

  Speaking of going into the office...I did 3 days this week and let me tell you, I woke up this morning feeling better than I have in a while on a Saturday morning.  Mentally, at least *L* (see above paragraph about my back *g*)  It actually feels like a weekend instead of just another day at home.  So much of my identity is tied up in my job.  Not sure if that's a good thing or not, but it works for me.  I need to feel productive, and that really is above and beyond the financial reward, which I need also, but....doing nothing is just not me.

  So...Thanks for all of your thoughts on the previous entry.  Wild One, I like that Proverb also.  I'm glad to hear what I had already suspected, that everyone repeats themselves to God.  I liked one response that theorized that we repeat for our own comfort, not because we think God didn't hear us or that we don't have enough faith.  That makes sense to me.

  I guess I should clarify that I'm not praying for any job in particular, just for A job.  Whichever one He knows is best for me, no matter what it looks like to me.  When I get an offer I'll know it is from Him and the one I should take.  I also understand that God does things in His own time, but, being the pitiful human that I am, I can't help but remind Him that I only have 10 weeks left of unemployment 

  Alrighty then, I need to try to finish putting Christmas stuff back in boxes so Nate can take them to the attic for me.  We didn't put a tree up this year....I still can't believe that.  But we went to my parents for Christmas so it isn't like we didn't celebrate around a tree, just not one in our home.  Boy, when I type that out it sounds so sad, but I did decorate around the house and it wasn't sad.  Really.  Honestly.

  You kids enjoy your day! 

   

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