August 5, 2007

  • Still Got A Pulse

    Someone (might have been me) once said never lose your sense of humor...I am attempting to comply 

    It's funny that your world can come crashing down on you but yet nothing changes....Life goes on as per usual.  I went to work Friday, I don't think I got all that much done, but I was there.  I feel a tightness in my chest but I just keep on doing what I do, sometimes chewing up an aspirin just for the heck of it. 

    I spoke to Joe Friday afternoon and told him that we need to just stop where we are before we cross anymore lines.  I did most of the talking, he just listened quietly and then said "Pick you up for dinner around 6?"  So, because I am weak, I said ok.  At dinner I again broached the subject of us just being friends, no more dinner dates and such.  I reminded him of all he has to lose, his home, his pension, the respect of his children.  He just looked at me for what seemed a long time, took my hand in both of his and told me that I am worth all of that to him.  As if to prove that, he continued to hold my hand across the table as he casually told me that Coach Gary and his wife had just been seated a table away from us.  And stopped, with his arm around me, at their table on our way out. Sheesh....no matter what I seem unable to keep a low profile.

    After dinner he brought me home and sat and talked with me for about an hour and then left, ordering me to get some rest.  I promptly went downstairs and cleaned the bathroom and laundry room    He says he's going no where, especially now with this heart thing, says he adores me and is in for the long haul. At this point I am just not in a position to argue with him.  I'm weak and scared about Tuesday and I am comforted by his presence and his steady calm and consideration of me.  I just can't worry about it right now, let me get through Tuesday. 

    I canned 8 quarts of tomatoes yesterday. Met with a guy from Leaf Guard gutter systems and bought new gutters and downspouts.  Cleaned a little bit.  Did some laundry and watched TV.  Today I got up and went to church and then to the grocery store.  My niece and nephew are coming soon to get pizza and watch a movie.  My parents will be here tomorrow sometime, I plan to work all day.  There is just a certain calmness found in doing normal things. 

    Ok, I think that's it for now.  You kids enjoy your Sunday ~ You know I will. 

     

Comments (26)

  • Glad to hear you still have a pulse. What is this, unplug stuff month?

  • The best thing you can do is to keep on living like normal and hope for the best. As for Joe, why does everything have to be so damned complicated???

  • You were a busy little bee this weekend huh?

    We have the gutter screens... so much easier. Take care doll. Keep us informed ok!

  • Deep breaths Terri, 10 deep breaths, it is relaxing.  I always found that work takes my mind off of things I worry about, having everything clean and organized does too. 

    Yeah, I agree with Gneiss Guy.  Why does everything have to be so complicated? 

    You take it easy.  We'll be praying for you. 

    By the way, I'll be sending something to Nate soon.  It's just something silly that I have done for some of the guys overseas, but I definately had to get one for Nate!  He can laugh or think I'm goofy, whatever (lol), it's my feelings though. 

    Psalm 46:10 Be still and know that I am God. 

    For some reason that always comforts me. 

  • I'm praying for you that all things go well on Tuesday. I remember well what you went through only a few years back, (in our old MDD days).

    HUGS

  • geez, sit back and watch a movie or two.  everything will be fine.  i should have gone to church today but i didn't.  instead i emptied out 3 trash cans i had stored stuff in.  took a trip to Goodwill.  i thought it was productive.  now about 30 rubbermaid containers to go thru.  at least it is a start.  take care and relax.  praying for ya. 

  • Is there something that says you have to have a perfectly clean neat house to go to the hospital? Was that in their instructions? I'm back on line. Enjoyed hearing your voice via phone again. Have you on my calendar for tomorrow and prayer time.

  • Good luck tomorrow!!!!

  • Take care.  Thinking of you ... :D

  • Good luck tomorrow, Terri. I'll be sending mojo your way. (Though it does sound like lack of mojo isn't your problem. )

  • Good Luck tomorrow!!  (GG's  Blog friend)

  • Those are the activities that calm and relax you?   Canning tomatoes in the heat?  Are you nuts?

    I'll be praying for you tomorrow.  Your card and a little something else is in the mail right now.

    Hugs.

  • GG sent me over... best of luck tomorrow and I will put you in my prayers...

  • Thinking of you sweets!! Warm hugs are in the vibes.... can ya feel it?

    Love you!!

  • GG says you're having a heart procedure. From the sounds of it, you've got a physical one and an emotional one going at the same time. I don't envy you. Love can be so complicated.

  • Oh, somehow I got to thinking rather than typing, and I neglected to say good luck with both.

  • <TABLE id=HB_Mail_Container height="100%" cellSpacing=0 cellPadding=0 width="100%" border=0 UNSELECTABLE="on">
    <TBODY>
    <TR height="100%" width="100%" UNSELECTABLE="on">
    <TD id=HB_Focus_Element vAlign=top width="100%" background="" height=250 UNSELECTABLE="off">
    <TR UNSELECTABLE="on" hb_tag="1">
    <TD style="FONT-SIZE: 1pt" height=1 UNSELECTABLE="on">

    <TABLE id=HB_Mail_Container height="100%" cellSpacing=0 cellPadding=0 width="100%" border=0 UNSELECTABLE="on">
    <TBODY>
    <TR height="100%" width="100%" UNSELECTABLE="on">
    <TD id=HB_Focus_Element vAlign=top width="100%" background="" height=250 UNSELECTABLE="off">Wishing you the best for tomorrow!  You will be in my thoughts.
    <TR UNSELECTABLE="on" hb_tag="1">
    <TD style="FONT-SIZE: 1pt" height=1 UNSELECTABLE="on">

  • Jeff sent me over...good luck to you and I will keep you in my prayers! ~tiffany

  • Good luck Hon!  You have a lot of people in your corner!  (GG's friend)

  • Hugs from another one. Do good tomorrow, mmmmkay? I think we'd like to see a post from you as soon as you feel like typing~

  • Expecting to hear good news from you soon...

  • Good luck tomorrow.  GG says to send you good vibes....mine are being thrown your way right now. 

  • I hope today goes well!!!!!!!!!!

    Love ya

  • It is now Tuesday afternoon. I am praying all goes well for you Terri.

  • I remember you from MDD   GG mentioned what you were going through.  I'm also here to wish you luck on both your health and emotional situation.

  • Gneiss Guy mentioned you were having a procedure tomorrow - I am adding my positive thoughts to all the others!

    (((hug)))

Comments are closed.

Post a Comment